It was a great pleasure to host my sister's family. Thankfully, it was warmer and we could enjoy a variety of activities and outings. Just before the roads had been nothing but treacherous ice.
Often it had been hard on me to spend time with Stefan's cousins as I would miss him among them and interacting with them. This was very poignant for me and I wonder if it was for them. But two years does seem like a time where things appear not as acute. Still there are always different things that remind you of him and which hurt. There is always something else, something new.
For example we watched a movie together last week: A Knight's Tale with Heath Ledger. We all know who Heath Ledger is and that he died at 28 in the midst of life. So when I watch Heath Ledger swing up and down the horse and be daring and win all his matches, see his blond hair fly, court a girl, be romantic writing poems, dancing... I have to think of Stefan. He was like that: active, blond, energetic, strong, romantic, busy, soulful, heroic, vulnerable.
All of our men are heroic and vulnerable. It's an amazing thing to love them.
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